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Gail

It's just another day? Right?

Only it's not. Not for me. For me, today is the day that my baby was due. It's the day I was supposed to be a mommy again. Even though I have a strong feeling that little B would have shown his rosy cheeked face on Sunday the 21st, today was still the day that the all the pregnancy calculators said it would be.

I'm trying so hard to move forward. And for the most part I do pretty well. A day doesn't go by that I don't think about him but I can get through the thought without feeling horrible anymore. I just can't help but wonder what life could have been like. I realize that there are those that would tell me that life is exactly as it should be and that my baby just wasn't meant to be. I don't believe that. I believe he was. Maybe he wasn't anyone that would be counted on a censes but he was someone to me.

I'm painfully tired and more ready to sleep than I have been in a long time but I'll power through until 5:00 and then go home and let blissful sleep take over for a while. Because sometimes, your mind and your heart and your body just need a break.

The week that sickness stole

When last we spoke, everyone was heathy... little did I know that both Brian and I would end up very sick. Not fun. I don't recommend it to anyone. Ever.

I'll spare the boring (and somewhat disgusting) details and leave at this, we're healthy again. Thank goodness.

I hope all of you are healthy, too.

love,
me :)

That Lucy sure is smart

I should put a nickel in her jar :)

What a difference a day makes!

My day yesterday was not so great. I was overtired. Feeling sad. And just all around unhappy.

At 5 I left my office in tears, mostly out of frustration and exhaustion, I wanted to go home a sleep for a month but I had to get to the dr's for my adjustment. Off I went, trying not to let the tears get in the way of driving.

Dr. English worked his magic and I felt so much better. Physically and emotionally. I decided to go get yarn since I was near Michaels in Goleta. Got what I needed plus a really cute yarn that screamed "Make me into a scarf for Wendee!" so who was I to argue? After that, I decided I wanted to get my brows waxed. I wanted to do something nice for me and that seemed perfect. Off I went to the brow place that's open late and got that done. Walked next door to the salon that was still open and got a much needed haircut. love it. She even flat ironed my hair and it looks awesome! Then I popped over to Sephora and got a sample of the Philosophy micro peel and went home and gave myself a facial. heaven! I felt like a new woman.

Today, I am well rested, with pretty hair and soft skin. Happy happy day!

Time to sleep

It's time for bed little mouse, little mouse
darkness is falling all over the house.

I am so tired I want to cry. Actually, I have cried. I want to sob. And I want a hug. And I want to be held in someone's arms and fall asleep.

It's time to sleep little deer, little deer
the very last kiss is almost here.

Envisioning the future

I know I've been kinda quiet the last week or so but I've been working hard on my vision statement. It's kind of my dreams for what I really want the next year or two or even longer to look like. It's going to be an always evolving thing because as new things happens my dreams will change or refine or grow and then I'll update it.

Plus, I've been working on a wedding. And that takes TIME. lol

love to all of you!

How could I resist?

My kingdom for a painfree back

I'm so freaking tired of my back hurting. Enough is enough.

Pain, pain go away.

And don't come back!

Happy New Year!

Welcome 2007.

There will be so much to share soon that I dare not even try to speak about it until I have a better handle on what it all is but suffice it to say that 2007 will be my year.

I'm certain of it.

I hope it's your year, too!